Vegetarian Journey !!

Ive been a vegetarian for about four months now. i was sitting on a chair and i was really serious about it the first time the idea came, i wanted to be like Annette Larkins, remains young till her old days... her story was inspirational to me because i couldnt even bear crinkles, what more of wrinklessssss.... i said to myself, even if Sultan Hassanah Bolkiah presented me with a heavenly feast with chicken wings, my heart would remain strong  and i would go through a clump of spiders for the sake of this new way of life. it was like ive been given a glimpse of sunshine from the heaven guys. it was beautiful... and suddenly the curtain was blown and a glimpse of sunshine fell into my eyes... and stylishly i fell from the chair...

Graciously i fell from the chair...

with enough time i span myself in the air, landed on the bed and posed like Sleeping Beauty

then it was time for me to go home. i told my mom that i had begun the diet for three months already and she didnt mind at all... one day my second cousin told us that he was going to hold a feast and he only informed us after his family had done preparing it. the family has been so nice with that i didnt have the heart to dissapoint them, therefore with a spirit like Dudley, Harry Potter's cousin, i turned the beast mode and ate like Bomburrrrrr...when it comes to chicken i become ridiculously crazy, and this could also be a reason why im a chicken (coward),,,, (theres a story behind my unusual craving for chicken)..

I was tempted !!

All of a sudden, Bombur's spirit and strength emerged inside me

after that unfortunate incident, i continued my vegan diet, eat rice with vegetables only. our fridge has a lot of stuff loaded by mum and she tends to forget what she buys so i've a got a lot of ideas to come up vegetarian recipes. please note that i use "vegetarian" instead of "vegan" because "vegan" only applies for a strict diet excluding dairy products and eggs as well, since i also take in eggs and milk therefore im just a vegetarian. when i came back to university that chicken craving came again, so i violated my dietary code for the second time, this time with elegance and sophisticated grace.

I did my second dietary code violation with STYLE

after that, i am more determined to keep my diet strict especially now i have understood something. i believe the light of spirituality will only enter my heart if i keep my diet out of those food that requires soul to be killed. in order to clean my body and soul, apart from thoughts, nutrition must be taken care too.

More determined this time !

these modern days, humanity and compassion are slowly diminishing from the hearts of humans. i have seen videos on the conditions of animals before they are being slaughtered and the ways the are slaughtered, and they are awfully barbaric. frequently some animals like chicken and goats are raised in pitiful states, crowded areas, and not very hygienic. these conditions are absolutely far from good in ensuring their well-beings. as we all know, animals are creatures of souls too, they know happiness, sadness, anger and fear. being raised in those conditions, we can only expect that they grow up with negative emotions. hence, we can deduce what form of meat are we to obtain then. yeah some look fit and healthy, which can be attributed to the hormonal factors, their owners supplied them hormones to make them producing more meat right.

We practice the value the more crowded the happier we'll be

even in the slaughtering process, i doubt about the atmospheres. are the animals being calmed down before their lives being taken away? is the slaughterhouse comfortable? is the blade blunt? are they all being allowed to die completely before they are being skinned? if the animals are in the state of unstable emotions before being slaughtered, stress hormones are triggered to excrete into the bloodstream and absorbed into their other body tissues. if we consume that type of meat, we end up consuming stress hormones ourselves. a study shows that the consumption of meat affected with fear-induced-hormones may lead to susceptibility to cardiac problems and fatigue as such.

I just ate Mama Chicken's eldest chick !

besides, we humans are primarily creatures of herbivores, we have internal tubes that are about ten times the length of our body while flesh eating animals have tubes about three times the length of their body. longer tubes mean longer digestive process, and it takes much longer to digest meat than it takes for non-meat products. it is more likely to putrefy first before it reaches the end of the process, and at the end, our intestines absorb the toxins as well.


by eating vegetables, we cause the least amount of destruction as plants have the lowest sense of awareness. besides, the protein in plants is efficiently absorbed unlike the one in meat. a balanced veggie diet also provides the lowest amount of cholesterol and sufficient nutritional needs. our minds become more alert and our souls become a lot more collected. many intellectuals are  vegetarians, such as philosophers and scientists like Plato, Pythagoras, Seneca, Plutarch, Leonardo da Vinci, Thomas Edison, etc.. i think i've come across somewhere stating even Einstein considered vegetarianism before he passed away.

We Vegetarians are BRAINY People !!!

i love animals... i can only eat the chicken because when I was in preadolescent years, Mama Chicken often chased me around pecking and crowing because i approached her chicks, so i ate chicken out of grudge. but not anymore, im all grown up so i forgive the chicken and i wont eat them any longer as well as other living creatures. becoming a vegetarian enriches my soul and calms my mind.

This event has developed my craves for chicken flesh.

What I Want

i dont know i just want to write, i have always loved writing, or typing in this sense, ever since i was a child. it's still clear though quite vaguely how i loved writing long pages of essays exceeding the limits and how i was having quite a trouble in completing a summary, the disease i would call as an outburst of words ~~~

i used to be a sensitive person. but not anymore. the basis for that underlying feeling that time could probably be attributed to my way of thinking trying to emphasize myself into the self of one that talked to me, but most unfortunate, that was a wrong a person. perhaps that could at least contribute to how i was long agooo...

slowly and efficiently, im becoming more opened as a person, readily to express my feelings as i should, being concern about what other people may think of myself rarely passes through my mind anymore, is it has to do with my conscious effort of trying to think positive of other people? yes it does.

it is amazing how positive we can be when we know that we at the stake of failure for not doing a certain job, and to finish it requires us to interact with someone that we deeply assume as the last person on earth that we'll kiss on the forehead. and trying to force our heart to feel good seems, theoretically and almost practically, is effecting the other person who we communicate to. at first that person might be quite rude, but as we go with the flow, putting aside our pride, they can have fun with us...

i have been trying to write a story about a girl named Mebel about two or three days ago. oh God, it was laborious to put ideas into words. spending three hours to finish the first paragraph was exhausting when it came to a matter of writing that required me to plan how the story would go. i would have utilized my whole day of contemplating on how to start or end a story, while at the same time i needed the time to focus and think on something else.

my sole purpose at the moment is to develop a good mental attitude as this will bring up my emotional intelligence to a higher level, in other words, it will help me to deal or work in situations under pressure without disturbing the peace inside of me, though to be in situations of risky calamity is anyone's last choice.